Everything I did was to survive another day
For most of my life I was living my life in survival mode, always trying to please others and putting my own feelings aside, spending time working so that I can survive financially. Always taking any criticism to heart, even from people I was not close with. Overtime I felt burned out, I felt manipulated, I felt numb and purposeless. While I was going through these hardships, I was also trying to grow my family. It took time but I eventually became pregnant.
I lost hope and faith
I was beginning to feel more hopeful about my life, but then I suffered a traumatic pregnancy loss. I asked the universe why me. Why does this happen to me? Why did they take away something so precious from me? I felt betrayed, abandoned and not loved by the universe. For a time I lost hope. To overcome my grief I eventually turned to meditation and manifestation.
The Universe responds to your matured manifestation
I wanted to manifest for a better life, a life with less suffering and pain. Interestingly, by doing inner spiritual manifestation, it has brought me better opportunities, support, even money that showed up in an unexpected way. I wasn’t satisfied with just manifestation, I needed to process and heal the deep emotional and spiritual pain.
What influences our perspective on reality?
Our reality is deeply related with the positive and negative feedback from our family, culture and society. What we had experienced in our early life shapes our perspective, beliefs, emotions, feelings and responses towards different challenges.
The core pattern that repeats itself
One of the core patterns that has repeated itself on me is my feeling of I am not loved and supported in being who I want to be and to ask for what I want. It started with me growing up in a family that was living paycheck to paycheck. We lived each day just getting by. I was fearful to ask something from my parents as I knew they probably wouldn’t be able to provide that. These feelings continued into my adulthood, I felt that I was not good enough and I didn’t deserve to dream or get what I really desire. I lost motivation in asking for what I really wanted, whether it was in my career, relationship, or a life that I dreamed of. I was swallowed by overwhelmed feelings, burnout, stress and anxiety.
Heal the negative and limiting beliefs
I could no longer tolerate my feeling of unworthiness and living a mediocre life. I witnessed and confronted all the negative beliefs, thoughts, wounds, emotional and spiritual pain that I had. I prioritized healing the issues or challenges that affected me the most at the moment. By healing and neutralizing them, I am able to trust in my ability to be able to create more love, wealth and my joy for life.
Welcome the positive changes in you
Inner spiritual healing creates more space for positive and inspiring thoughts, feelings, emotions, and wellness to come to us. That is how a transformation is possible. That is how we can claim back our power to be our true self to really build the life we desire from the soul.
From my own transformation I would love to help people heal and realize what a strong being they are, they are full of potential, and they can truly create a life that they truly desire regardless of what is going on in the outer world.
